surgery : bye for a while

okei
this is the thing
when I was pregnant with Aksan, I found a small lump on my right breast
I consult it with my surgeon
and we decide to take it out once I stop nursing Aksan
When Aksan is like 12 months old, the lump just gone on me
I was glad!
when I was pregnant with Kiera, the exact same thing happen again
the exact same small lump
on the same location
I thought the lump will gone too, just like the one I the previous case
but when Kiera is like a month old, I found something is different
instead of going smaller, the lump gone bigger and it hurt sometimes
on last Tuesday I went back to my surgeon
she ultrasound the lump
yes rite
its the same fibrioadenoma in the same place
but since in this case the lump got bigger & hurt, my surgeon said
"it has to be removed, and considering the size, we have to take it out now"
ow yes, the lump "just" 4 cm big, almost 3 times bigger than the last one
and okei
so I schedule for a surgery rite away
for me, the sooner the better
the doctor said, the milk duct will disturbed by the surgery,
and maybe I can just nurse Kiera with my left breast until the right one recover
I'm so sorry baby Kiera
its not like I want it or what
fortunatelly, I already stock up breastmilk in the freezer
mas just has to warm it and feed Kiera with it

today is the of the surgery
when you guys read this posting, I already stuck in the surgery room, maybe
its just half day surgery, no total anesthesia
I have to be there on 11.30, the surgery schedule at 1 pm, and if everything is okei, I can go home at 5 pm

please pray for my baby Kiera everyone
I want her to drink milk from me, not a "susu formula" thing
I have the milk and Kiera need the milk
so I wont give up just because a breast lump
she deserves to get the best from me
hope everything got better soon and I can nurse Kiera as I used to be